Post by NicoJoe on Aug 5, 2010 16:04:15 GMT -5
The rush of people filtering into the kitchen had distracted Harrison and, consequently, he had lost sight of Basia as everyone moved into the dining room. The spread was impressive; it rivaled the variety he had seen once when he dined with a Saudi prince while on a mission a few years back. Harrison loved food. He thought of himself as something a connoisseur of fine dining since he had spent so much time at high class parties and social events that he knew good food when he saw it. And this was good food. High end sushi, filet mignon, beluga caviar, and moose milk cheese which Harrison knew to sell for five hundred dollars a pound. He always liked that cheese, though it was a bit too sharp.
By the time he located Basia, the seat next to her was filled. Disappointed, Silk moved to the seat across from her and began to pile food onto his plate. As he looked to Basia, about to speak, he noticed Jimmy’s eyes closed and his hands stuck together, steadfast in prayer. This made Harrison stop, thoughts and memories flooded to his mind. His mother was a religious woman, a stanch catholic and attended church every Sunday without complaint and without missing a day as far as he could remember. She had taken him a few times but never forced the church or her beliefs onto him.
Harrison remembered one night when he was young. It was a late, but his father wasn’t home. It was their one day off from the show, Sunday, so he was out at some bar with his buddies, leaving his family at home. Harrisons mother, Cecelia, was in her room and Harrison was on his way to his back to bed after getting up to use the restroom. Her door was cracked and he heard her talking, but not as if she was speaking to someone in the room. He creped to the door and listened, quietly, to her words as she prayed.
“Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep;
if I die before I wake,
I pray for God my soul to take,” she opened her prayer with the same words she had taught Harrison when he was younger. ‘For when you need God,” she had said. Harrison peeked into her room and saw her, knelt by her beside and her hands clasps together, begging to her God. Betwixt her fingers she held tightly to a set of white beads with a crucifix hanging from the end of them. Her black hair, her long black hair, fell in to her face as she bowed her head at the words.
“I thank thee for all thou have given me,” she said slightly louder than a whisper, “For the love and safety thou has seen fit to bestow upon me. For all the things I’ve been given to help me in my life and keep me safe and secure. But most of all, I thank thee for the wonderful son I was able to bear and I pray that though may bless him and make sure he knows of my love for him.”
He could hear her voice tremble, tears were probably flowing from her eyes but he couldn’t see her face through her hair. “I am sorry for the sins I have committed. I pray for forgiveness for my inequities and wrongdoings. I pray to be a better person, the person I was placed on this Earth to become. I shall strive to follow thee completely and return to thee. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, and he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. Amen.”
The memory brought a tear to Harrison’s eye, but he wiped it away before any could notice. It wasn’t a tear for the prayer, but the memory of his mother. He hadn’t seen or heard from her in so long. He wondered if she was alive. He wondered what his actions had done to her. He loved his mother, but she was his past now and he must again put her behind him.
The thought of God was interesting, but not a firm belief to Harrison. He couldn’t fully accept the thought of a man in the sky watching his every move, judging him for the choices he makes and the life he chose to live. Of course, accepting this would mean that all the things he had done- the killings, the thefts and the sexual improprieties- were all to be the end of him. Damn him to Hell for all eternity and assure a forever of torture and suffering. No, he couldn’t accept this. Not without proof. He couldn’t allow his mind to believe in a deity that disapproved of him and his life. He may, someday, go to Hell. But he wouldn’t accept it until he was there. Until his soul was at the mercy of that man is the sky, he wouldn’t believe.
Harrison turned back to Basia and smiled bright at her as he continued placing food on his plate. “So, Basia, you dance? What style, if you don’t mind me asking?”
By the time he located Basia, the seat next to her was filled. Disappointed, Silk moved to the seat across from her and began to pile food onto his plate. As he looked to Basia, about to speak, he noticed Jimmy’s eyes closed and his hands stuck together, steadfast in prayer. This made Harrison stop, thoughts and memories flooded to his mind. His mother was a religious woman, a stanch catholic and attended church every Sunday without complaint and without missing a day as far as he could remember. She had taken him a few times but never forced the church or her beliefs onto him.
Harrison remembered one night when he was young. It was a late, but his father wasn’t home. It was their one day off from the show, Sunday, so he was out at some bar with his buddies, leaving his family at home. Harrisons mother, Cecelia, was in her room and Harrison was on his way to his back to bed after getting up to use the restroom. Her door was cracked and he heard her talking, but not as if she was speaking to someone in the room. He creped to the door and listened, quietly, to her words as she prayed.
“Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep;
if I die before I wake,
I pray for God my soul to take,” she opened her prayer with the same words she had taught Harrison when he was younger. ‘For when you need God,” she had said. Harrison peeked into her room and saw her, knelt by her beside and her hands clasps together, begging to her God. Betwixt her fingers she held tightly to a set of white beads with a crucifix hanging from the end of them. Her black hair, her long black hair, fell in to her face as she bowed her head at the words.
“I thank thee for all thou have given me,” she said slightly louder than a whisper, “For the love and safety thou has seen fit to bestow upon me. For all the things I’ve been given to help me in my life and keep me safe and secure. But most of all, I thank thee for the wonderful son I was able to bear and I pray that though may bless him and make sure he knows of my love for him.”
He could hear her voice tremble, tears were probably flowing from her eyes but he couldn’t see her face through her hair. “I am sorry for the sins I have committed. I pray for forgiveness for my inequities and wrongdoings. I pray to be a better person, the person I was placed on this Earth to become. I shall strive to follow thee completely and return to thee. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, and he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever. Amen.”
The memory brought a tear to Harrison’s eye, but he wiped it away before any could notice. It wasn’t a tear for the prayer, but the memory of his mother. He hadn’t seen or heard from her in so long. He wondered if she was alive. He wondered what his actions had done to her. He loved his mother, but she was his past now and he must again put her behind him.
The thought of God was interesting, but not a firm belief to Harrison. He couldn’t fully accept the thought of a man in the sky watching his every move, judging him for the choices he makes and the life he chose to live. Of course, accepting this would mean that all the things he had done- the killings, the thefts and the sexual improprieties- were all to be the end of him. Damn him to Hell for all eternity and assure a forever of torture and suffering. No, he couldn’t accept this. Not without proof. He couldn’t allow his mind to believe in a deity that disapproved of him and his life. He may, someday, go to Hell. But he wouldn’t accept it until he was there. Until his soul was at the mercy of that man is the sky, he wouldn’t believe.
Harrison turned back to Basia and smiled bright at her as he continued placing food on his plate. “So, Basia, you dance? What style, if you don’t mind me asking?”